OPENING
I’m Joseph Murphy. Welcome to Alien Brain Fog, a science-focused podcast on memory, identity and the systems of oppression that affect both. How do you know who you really are?
For our first episode, we’re asking the most important question. How can you tell if you’ve lost your mind?
Is it just me, or does everyone seem a little crazy right now. Everywhere I look, I see the same expression on people’s face. Shock and anger, like no one can believe what’s happening is really happening.
The government announced aliens are real. No one cares. More and more angry young white men are taking out their rage on innocent people. People are looking for the Loch Ness monster again. There were even protests in China last year
Trump talks about shooting his political rivals and it’s just a normal news cycle.
Are aliens real? People online don't seem to care either way.
Compare this to what we expected about a year ago
Contact with ET: How would humanity react?
If there’s one thing I’m an expert on, it’s conspiracy theories. I’ve been interested in UFOS since I was child. I have a clear memory of the first time I saw an object in the sky that didn’t make sense. I was five. We lived in Owen Sound at the time. Dad drove us to gramma’s house (my mom’s mom). I looked over the treelines and saw a black shape in the air. I asked my dad what it was. Without looking he said it was a weather balloon. I accepted his answer and decided to investigate weather balloons.
My memory is confused here. I want to say I started researching weather balloons immediately, but that doesn’t make sense. I didn’t start researching UFOS until we moved to Windsor. Tecumseh Mall used to have a library. My mother would drop me and my brother off at the library while she did her grocery shopping. To me, that was heaven. I started near the beginning of the library. UFOS and the paranormal, in my memory, were the first shelves as you walked in. I realize as I’m writing this, I dream of the library often.
I read about UFOS and paranormal encounters from childhood into my teenage years. In my memory, I do not recall ever believing I’d seen UFOS or aliens. I was interested in the subject but had no personal connection to it.
And I kept that belief until I read Communion by Whitley Streiber.I loved Whitley Streiber. For me, he was up there with the greats. Steven King, Dean Koontz, and Whitely Streiber. I felt a special affinity for one of his lesser-known books, Cat Magic. Something in it thrilled me.
I was in Grade 12 or 13. I’ll have to review my diaries to confirm, but I remember the major assignment for an English class was to read every book by a specific author and make a summary of their entire work. I chose Whitely because I loved his horror.
I didn’t read Communion when it came out. I remember seeing on book shelves and being intrigued. But it wasn’t until the class project that I read Communion. And even then nothing clicked.
Until about half way through the book. Hearing Whitley’s experiences made me look at some of the strangeness in my life through a different lens. He mentioned seeing owls everywhere or dreaming of owls. I distinctly remember that was a chilling moment for me. I remember thinking; oh my god. I see owls all the time.
Does that mean I’ve been visited too?
RACISM
My mother was black. My father was white. No one mistook me for a white man until I shaved my head. Now, to some I am racially ambiguous. They don’t know how to classify me. When I walk into a room, I can tell if they are treating me as a black man or a white man.
I’ve always known racism is real. I’ve been turned away from restaurants because they were closed for lunch. Tons of microagressions. But until I worked for the Province of Ontario in Canada, I didn’t believe systemic racism still existed. I believed the government propaganda that programs had been put in place to protect black people.
I believe that until I was harassed at work. In an office with three managers, one was actively engaged in harassment of black staff members. The other two watched. When I discovered that the harassment was aimed at all black people and not just me, I spoke up.
And that’s when things got so much worse.
In Ontario we have a law called Bill 168.
Ontario - Preventing workplace violence and workplace harassment
- engaging in a course of vexatious comment or conduct against a worker in a workplace that is known or ought reasonably to be known to be unwelcome or
Duties
- an investigation that is appropriate in the circumstances is conducted into incidents and complaints of workplace harassment
- the worker who has allegedly experienced workplace harassment and the alleged harasser, if he or she is a worker of the employer, are informed in writing of the results of the investigation and of any corrective action that has been taken or that will be taken as a result of the investigation
- the harassment program is reviewed as often as necessary, but at least annually, to ensure that it adequately implements the policy with respect to workplace harassment
GAME THEORY
A game is any activity with a set of rules and strategies for winning. All players know the rules and agree to follow them. Strategies are a way to turn random events to your advantage. If you know the rules and the strategies, you can make predictions on various outcomes and make informed choices about future moves.
For example, chess. Hundreds of books have been written about chess strategy. To play the game, you have to know the rules. You learn the strategies over time. Chess, like drag, is not a contact sport. Normally, the person with the best strategy wins.
I love games. My favourite is a MMO called Elder Scrolls online. My main character is Grandmaster Wisdom, a tank. When I’m not running dungeons, I pay their mini-game Tales of Tribute. But I noticed something this week that makes it less fun to play.
I noticed that it didn’t seem to matter what I did. The decision whether I was going to win or lose was decided before I started playing. The system ensured that each time I drew a card it was “meh” but each time my opponent drew one it was amazing. No matter which cards I chose or how I laid them down, the system had decided I wasn’t going to win. Eventually the “randomness” change and I started winning again. But by then the illusion was gone. I realized it wasn’t my skill advancing me. It was the system. If ESO wanted me to win, I won. If it wanted me to lose, I lost. And my individual actions had no bearing on it.
Now back to racism.
When it appeared that the agency investigating harassment (WDHP) was suppressing reports, I reached as high up as possible. I emailed Michelle DiEmanuelle repeatedly asking for assistance. I told DeEmmanuelle that I had uncovered government officials suppressing evidence and altering reports.. I told them the public had a right to know there was problems within the public service. I wanted it to come from them.
And that’s was the first time they tried to fire me.
So how did they fool me? They took advantage of my disability. I have lived with Long Covid wince January 2021. After the first attempt to fire me failed, they waited until Had a mental health crisis in November 2023. I was forced to watch a video I found offensive while the manager who had been harassing me smiled. This happened on the day I had to put my cat down. Sneakers was going on 20 and he was my best friend.
I snapped. And by “snapped” here’s what I mean.
I sent an email to Patti Redmond’s replacement saying enough is enough.
I asked how many more people were going to be traumatized before something changed. Her response was dismissive. I went to Facebook and complained. I had been talking about racism for months on Facebook. Management and union were aware. I was told my actions would be monitored if I would be told if I said something inappropriate. I was promised that I would not be fired without cause or without warning.
I caught those promises on tape. At the time, I believed them. I can see now I was incredibly naïve, but for that I blame COVID. My brain has not worked the same since. At the time, I was easily confused. They took at advantage of that. I lose my job, my sanity, and quickly lost my house.
The union stopped responding to my emails. Friends from work started ignoring me including my closest work friend, Erin. Erin also happened to be the local president and had seen every piece of evidence about harassment. It was because of Erin’s encouragement that I proceeded with the grievance.
Once the grievance actually started, she stopped returning my texts and phone calls. I haven’t heard from her since December 2022.
WHAT IS BRAIN FOG
WHAT IS MENTAL HEALTH?
Or maybe mental illness is a warning sign. Maybe we’re not supposed to tolerate it? Maybe when everyone starts losing their mind, it means we need to make a change to society? Maybe that.
Statistics from Mental Health Canada - Mental Health in Canada
Statistics on Mental Health - Forbes magazine.
WHAT PARTS OF "YOU" ARE "YOU"?
Last year I experienced a lot of trauma one after the other. At work I was harassed due to the colour of my skin. When I asked for the harassment to be investigated, reports were suppressed. When I called them on this behaviour, I was fired. Afterwards, I had a mental break down.
But is that because of ME or because of the actions of others.
What if your own mental illness is because of the actions of another person. Or the actions of an entire society.
Women called crazy – history of hysteria
Black people called crazy for wanting not to be slaves
Many are called crazy for reporting encounters.
In each of these cases, a person may be told they are crazy. They may internalize this and BELIEVE they are crazy when in truth they are responding to reality as it exists
So when other people say you’re crazy, how can you tell if their telling the truth? Because maybe they are trying to gaslight you.
EXPERTS VS. NON EXPERTS
WAYS TO DETERMINE IF SOMETHING IS REAL.
Science
- State the problem. State the problem that you will study as clearly and concisely as possible.
- Form the hypothesis. Describe what you think the result of your study will be.
- Observe and experiment. Observe or set up an experiment to test your hypothesis. Tally your data.
- Interpret data. Once you have collected your data, you must understand what it tells you. The data can be
- Interpreted by comparing numbers visually and/or in graphic form.
- Draw conclusions. Did your observations and/or experiments support your hypothesis? Was your hypothesis proved or disproved by your study? Did your results show a strong correlation? Were there things that could be changed to make a better experiment? Are there things that need to be studied further?
Magic
Science vs. Pseudoscience.
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